frustration tank post :D

sigh....even though I'm *just* a student, I only get 2 weeks of holidays per year.

I hate it when all those salary-takers say things like "you're lucky you're just a student. Enjoy your study life...bla bla" All shit. They have no idea how hard we work, what kind of humiliation and dirty looks we have to endure some day, how much study we have to do even when we're home.
Not to mention all the time we spent being on call, the 24 hours of being awake. The weekends and public holidays we work when other people enjoy themselves.

And guess what, of course I dont get paid!

I'm always too lazy to explain myself when people say that to me. Apa jua. I dont care what those people think. But I need to let out my frustration once in a while in my blog :D


As for my 2-weeks holiday, I asked all my friends what is their plan. Everyone say no plan. So I thought it would be fun to arrange a getaway with everyone. Most people didnt reply. Some just say they have tentative plan to return brunei/malaysia. Some say they feel like staying in calgary.

Now suddenly most people has a plan! Some going to London, UK. Bought tickets and everything, then have the gut to approach me and ask me if i know anyone in london they can stay with. Some has been checking tickets to go to the states. Some planning to go vancouver, toronto.

Out of principal, I'll be staying in calgary! And anywhere I go, you can bet I'm going on my own.

In the Chamber of Bliss

My emergency medicine rotation is coming to an end soon! It's only 2 weeks :(
I've done 6 shifts and 1 seminar day. One more shift, one more seminar day, and one exam to go.

Overall, I love it! Well, I hated one of my shifts, but it's only 1 out of 6 so far.

My next rotation - family medicine. It will be in Bassano; a rural small town, about 140km outside of Calgary. Population of 1390. Sounds cool eh?


As for my guitar, I've been making quite a progress, if I may say so myself :D
I've learned to play beginner level of "more than words" (remember westlife?), Jason Mraz's "I'm yours", and the remix version of "nobody".

I think my next step is to memorise all the basic chords before I attempted more songs! So far, I've been memorising chords as I play, but I'm constantly referring to a printed page of basic chords on my wall.

I went back to the guitar shop to buy a capo today. The sales assistant recognised me! Not the same person who sold me the guitar. Just another sales assistant. I guess there must not be many asian females buying guitar. Haha. He corrected my pronounciation of capo -.-

I'm currently watching a new tvb drama "In the Chamber of Bliss". It's a pre-modern drama, around the WWII period, loosely based on a historical figure, Cai E, a governor-general around the time of Chinese revolution, who is promiment for overthrowing the first president of China's attempt to revive monarchy. The man who changed the course of China history. According to legend, he was inspired and helped by a prostitute.

And of course, I'm watching the romance, not the war and politics. In this drama, he is married, with a son. And while he was in Beijing, he met a prostitute, who fell in love with his kindness towards her.

I was soooooo annoyed with the prostitute's attempts to be with him. She knows he has a very gentle and loving wife, but she still keep chasing him. What does she expect kan? That he would left his wife and kid to be with her? Dumb annoying woman. She keeps asking him if he has no feelings for her. And the damned guy has no courage to either admit he likes her or to simply lie to her and end the whole thing.

So when he was pushed into a bad political situation, he decided to leave his wife and pretended to be with the prostitute, so that the government will not be suspicious of him. So sad la!
For the country, he sacrificed the feelings of two women.

Introducing....

............my new baby - EROS (named after the Greek God of love)

It is absolute love at second sight. Haha.

The manufacturer said it's a "Dusk Sun Red" colour. But I think the most accurate way to describe it is "wine red". It has the fluidity of red wine with colour ranges from almost black to red.

And I absolutely love the rosewood fingerboard.

I've tried taking many pictures but the colour just does not come out right! It's so different in pictures and in real life, so I gave up. The colour is too too bright in pictures.

I didint notice it when I first walked past it, but when the sales assistant picked it up and showed it to me. I'm like *gasp* " That's gorgeous". I walked into the store wanting to get a black one, maybe with deep blue undertone. But this is gorgeous!

So here is me with my brand new Yamaha :D


I also bought a hard case, a tuner, a humidifier :D
Spent a total of CAD$500 -_-"

100x better than original

Whatcha say

I'm now typing for the sake of letting you guys know I'm still alive and well :D
Not much to say.

Just finished my obs & gyne rotation yesterday. *phew* So glad it's over. Definitely not my kind of thing. Exam was ok, not too hard, but not sure if I'll pass. Haha. As usual.

Then I went out with a bunch of friends at night. Mostly people from school. Dinner with red wine, then desserts in a bar :S I skipped the drinking till drunk + clubbing session. Haha. I'm getting too old. I didnt sleep much the night before, studying for exam. Anyway, getting drunk is not my kind of thing anyway.

Next rotation - Emergency!
I'm working mostly night shifts. Boo~ Anyway, it's only 2 weeks.
Hopefully I'll enjoy the fast pace.

As for my application for residency, it has been stressful. Huhu~ Mostly coz there's a lot of things to do, and people to contact.

And if you've been on FB lots, you'll know bout my speeding ticket. I was driving 68kph (yes, 68) in a 50kph zone. Huhu~ The funny thing is the road here is big, smooth, and 10x better than the Brunei highway that I used to drive 180-200kph everyday. Sigh.

It's snowing outside now. Everything looks white white white. Brrrr....

push

It's winter in Calgary. Sighhhhh~~~
Snow. Snow. Snow. Which is lovely, except when I'm driving. Self reminder: get winter tyres!

I woke up this morning with sore jaw and fingers, and realise that I've been waking up with clenched jaw and fists, which usually means that I'm pushed close to the edge of my stress capacity.

I'm rather sick of fighting for a residency spot here in canada. I keep getting hopes and disappointment, over and over again. I work so hard, going here and there, making phone calls, emails. Only to be pushed here and there, and told to be "sabar" when no progress is done for me. I'm tired. I dont wanna stress myself about it anymore.

If they want me to return to Brunei, so be it.


I like this song recently:

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

I wanna push you around,
well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down,
well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted,
I wanna take you for granted,
yeah I will, I will

obs&gyne

Lazy to blog. Huhu~

Am currently in my obs&gyne rotation. I'm surprised that I actually enjoy it more than I thought I would. It's been fun so far, but not sure if it's something I wanna do for the rest of my life.

Pregnant women, delivering babies and pap smears for another 30-40 years? I dont think so.

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Just came home from thanksgiving dinner at my auntie Elizabeth's place. I love turkey + potato + gravy! Yum~

Tomorrow (saturday) got 2 open house (one Bruneian and one malaysian), then I'm on call Sunday (sigh), and monday open house at our place. Too much food!!!!


I'm sooooooooooo stressed with waiting. Can someone please do something about the speed and amount of work done in certain government department??