back t brunei (part 2)

Today is the last day of 2008.

I dont really have many fond memories of 2008.
And I dont really have any resolutions for 2009.

I just want 2009 to fly as fast as possible. Coz of clerkship. Haha.
I cant wait for 2010 - Graduation. I hope. Or maybe the next one.

I dont know.
I've been flrting with the idea of taking a year off medical school, and continue the following year, with my juniors. I'm tired. Mentally not ready for my third year. I havent do my best for my second year. I'm just tired. I dont wanna do more.

Yesterday was my cousin Audry's birthday.
I was supposed to help her with decorations, but she was done by the time I arrived. I just do a few light stuff, like choose the songs, accompany her buy drinks, arrange the fans, etc.

She invited a lot of friends. Me and my cousins were super loud. As usual. Ignoring all her friends. Not exactly ignoring la. Just dont know them, and no introductions were made.
Anyway, it was fun hanging out with my sisters and cousins, my parents and my aunts.

Jiun was busy, so he didnt go, but his dad was there. Hmm. I didnt know what to say when Audry introduced Jiun's dad to me.
Was I supposed to say, "Hi uncle. I'm your son's friend. We've known each other for almost 10 years liao"?

I was out with Jiun on Monday, together with two friends (whom I know through him). One is Kah Soon (my titi), and shyang (the 1.92m guy who lost 32kg).
Kah Soon actually do call me jie-jie. Hehe. It was sweet.
We were supposed to watch movie, but Gadong was super jammed.
So we ended up eating in Escapade, then stopped by Empire. We went to visit the infamous grass dolphins and took some pictures (I'll upload as soon as I feel like it. Haha.)
It was fun to be able to simply sit there, enjoying the company, the view, the wind.

I'm leaving January 7.
I'm very torn between wanting to stay, and wanting to leave.

Yesterday, something very very cute happened. Someone did something very very unexpected. Very funny. Very touching. Very cute. I wish I can share it with someone, but I can't. Sigh. I'm afraid I'll burst someday.
Do I have to keep them all to myself?

royally pissed

I hate people who says "wah. you're getting thinner oh" in their UGLY sarcastic way. I feel like spitting in their face.

Why is it their business whether I'm fat or thin. I dont work for your bloody modelling company, you bastard/bitch.
What the fuck do you gain when you tell me I'm fat in your mean I-mean-the-opposite tone?

The only person who can tell me I'm fat are ME myself, and my parents. Hear me???? Even giap will be ignored if he dare to tell me I gain weight.

It's not like I'm in denial. I just fucken hate it when people make my life their business.
If I ASK you, then yes, you can say I'm fat.
If you're answering a survey about me, then yes, you can say I'm fat.
But dont make it your bloody business to make very UNFUNNY jokes about my weight. I'll say this again - not funny, you idiot.

Dont expect me to be polite or nice to you after your rude stupid insensitive busybody joke.
You're lucky I dont make similar comments about your ugly full-of-holes face, or your shitty job that will go nowhere.

And I hate it even more when people touch me using lame excuses like "wah. look at that fat."

You ugly, stupid, insensitive jerks!!!!! URGH~~~

Ah.....I feel better now.

Well, yeah, I did gain weight. So what? I'm not a model. I dont depend on my looks for anything.

back t brunei (part 1)

Hahaha..
Just woke up from my 12-hour long "nap".
I told mum I'll wake up for dinner, but I slept till 530am.

The internet is tooo tooooo tooooooooo slow la.

I spent the last 2 days at my parents' shop, coz it's the busiest time of the year now.
A customer told me that I look like "anak patung, macam barbie doll". Hahahaha. So happy. When I told my sis, she replied "He forgot to wear his glasses today" -.-
Haha.

Christmas eve was great. BBQ at my house with my family and cousins.
I love the chicken wings. Yum!

FYI, friends and fiends, we're going to have a gathering/lunch at Capers Kiulap, next Friday (Jan 2) at 1130am. Please come!!! The more the merrier.

I love the oreo baked cheese cake at mum's bakery. Nyaman la~~

Tristan is as always, awesome. The first drive is always the best, coz you forgot how powerful the car really is.
I also drove my mum's nissan murano. I have to say I underestimated it. Haha. A very powerful drive, despite its looks. Excellent audio system as well.

I miss Leo. And according to resources, he misses me as well. Haha. Coz he looks sad ever since I left Calgary.

Lol. Too random. I should go get ready.
Bye folks.

*sigh* I hate being left out, but I always am.

wo bu pei - updated

Updated upon request :p
I think it will be quite a while before I blog again - coz espeed sucks!!!
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I'm now in our school cafeteria - was studying for the exam (which is tomorrow), while listening to my iTunes (playlist). Obviously I'm not studying now. Haha. Took a break when I heard one of my favourite Jay's songs (the one playing in my blog now).

I really recommend watching the mv of this song.
Very sad :( But definitely one of my favourites.
I love the part where his *gf* jumped in joy when she watched Jay receiving an award on tv. It reflects her happiness, but also her loneliness.



Lyrics with pinyin and translations:
I stole it from here. With some modifications.
Jay's lyrics are hard to translate coz 1. he doesnt always pronounce his words clearly, and 2. the standard of chinese used is a bit beyond my level of knowledge.

周杰倫- 我不配
Jay Chou- wo bu pei (I'm not worthy)

这街上太
Zhe Jie shang tai yong ji
This street is too crowded

太多人有秘密
Tai duo ren you mi mi
There's too many people with secrets

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
bo li shang you wu qi zai bei yin chang qi guo qu
The fog on the glass is hiding the past

你脸上的情绪
Ni lian shang de qing xu
The expression on your face

在还原那场雨
Zai huan yuan na chang yu
Is restoring that rain

这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
Zhe xiang nong tai guo wan qu zou bu hui gu shi li
This street is simply too narrow to return to the story

这日子不再绿
Zhe ri zi bu zai lu
These days are not green anymore

又斑驳了几句
You ban bo le ji ju
Just a few word exchanges

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
Sheng xia ban kong hui yi de wo zai da fang zi li
I'm left alone in the house, with half-filled memories

电影院的座椅
Dian ying yuan de zuo yi
The seats in the cinema

隔遥远的距离
Ge yao yuan de ju li
Are separated far by distance

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
Gan qing mei you dui shou shi ni gen zi ji xia qi
Emotions without a partner is like playing chess on your own

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
hai lai bu ji zi zi xi xi xie xia ni de guan yu
it's too late to carefully write down your concerns

描述我如何愛你
Miao shu wo ru he ai ni
Describing how I love you

你却微笑的离我而去
Ni que wei xiao de li wo er qu
Yet you smile and then leave


Chorus:

这感觉已经不对
Zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui
This feeling is not right anymore

我努力在挽回
Wo nu li zai wan hui
I tried hard to retrieve

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
Yi xie xie ying gai ti tie de de gan jue wo mei gei
All those little things I should have done, but I didnt

你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
Ni de zui xu de yuan wang hen bei wei
The wish on your lips is very simple

在妥协是我忽略
Zai tuo xie shi wo hu lue
But I neglected to do it

你不过要人陪
Ni bu guo yao ren pei
All you want is someone to accompany you

哦这感觉已经不对
a zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui
ahh, This feeling is not right anymore

我最后才了解
Wo zui hou cai liao jie
I'm the last to understand

一页页不忍翻阅的情节
Yi ye ye bu ren fan yue de qing jie
Many upcoming circumstances that we can not bear to move on to

你好累
Ni hao lei
You're so tired

你默背为我掉过几次泪
Ni mo bei wei wo diao guo ci lei
You have cried for so many times without me knowing

多憔悴
Duo qiao sui
So sallow

而我心碎你受罪
er wo xin sui ni shou zui
Yet when my heart breaks, you suffers

你的美, 我不配
ni de mei, wo bu pei
Your beauty, I'm not worthy

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And yes, V, it is the same girl throughout the mv.
I think in the story, she's like the secret gf of a celebrity (him kali). And I guess she's tired of meeting him in secret and tired of his busy life with very little time for her.
And the song is saying that he thinks he's not worthy of her.
Kali la....hahaha.

See you guys in Brunei *hugs*
Lots and lots of Love,
Lizzy.

cars and drama

I was watching "Gem of Life", episode 35, when Moses Chan's character "Terrence" said:

"我 這 次 抱 了 妳 之 後, 我 不 會 再 放 手 了"
"wo zhe ci bao le ni zhi hou, wo bu hui zai fang shou le"
which loosely translates into
"After this hug, I wont ever let go again"

*sighhh....* So sweet la.

Why was it sweet?
Well, the female character "Constance" broke up with him earlier on, because her sister married his father (I know!). He tried a lot of ways to convince her to be with him again, but she rejected him again and again.
One day, she saw a poster with the word, Serendipity, and it reminded her of the time they worked together to come up with a chinese word for it. So she ran to look for him in his boat at the harbour (yes, he owns a boat AND a lamborghini).
Then he, in his cool "shao ye" way, said "我 這 次 抱 了 妳 之 後, 我 不 會 再 放 手 了"

Anyway, there's supposed to be more than 80 episodes in this drama, and will be broadcasted until February next year, so I can only watch a few episodes per week.
Highly recommended though.

Ok la, I admit I'm biased, coz I LOVE the lamborghini in this drama. I can only cry when Constance drove Terrence's and not appreciate that this is THE car. A Lamborghini Gallardo Superleggera!!

Isnt this the most adorable thing on the road?

Well, my first love will always be an orange Lamborghini Murciélago, but nothing can be as adorable as a white or black Gallardo on the road.

Like I said, the first thing I wanna do when I work is to save money to buy one of my dream cars - a Ferrarri F430 or a Lambor. In order to do that, I probably have to save 5-10 years. LoLzz. So no marriage and no kids for me for at least another 12 years.

And did I mention aston martin? Anyone watched Quantum of Solace?
Life is awesome

ai mei de nu ren (part 2)

I'm so in love with Burberry white Leather Drawstring Tote!!! But I dont wanna spend US$1495 on a bag *sigh* so I guess I'll just keep it in my dream wishlist. Haha.
A lot of women are obssessed with bags. I'm not one of them, although I do own a white leather Juicy Couture. But if I buy 1 burberry bag, I can buy 7 Juicy Couture bag. Haha.
Hmm...

And I can't wait to go back to Gadong Mall and buy Laneige Snow Magic eye shadow. It's limited edition so I hope they have it in Brunei.

Also need to cut my hair. Of course I'll go back to Frankie. He's the only hairdresser who has ever understand what I want. Muah. Dont quit before I'm back.

Today, I went dinner with Janet. But before that, we stopped for some quick shopping. I finally bought a curling iron. It's a Toni&Guy 32mm. Perfect for giving the hair just a bit more character like Rainie below. On days when you have some extra time. Hehe.


I feel like I'm getting more and more frivolous.
I used to be against make-up, heels, jeans, etc. Now I'm a big fan of Nine West jeans. My heels have to be at least 2 inch. And I have a box (yes, box) of make-up stuff, not to mention my manicure sets.

Hmm.. *sigh*

Anyway, from the request of V in my last post:
It's so hard to include both the hair clip and my face in the same picture. I have to take a few (ok, a lot) of pictures before I get it right.
Please do not look at my eye bags (I need sleep)


I hate to put up my picture in the same post as Rainie picture.
Makes me depressed. Haha.

ai mei de nu ren (part 1)

Less than a week to exam -.-
SO stressed that I went shopping, even in 1 feet of snow yesterday (excuse for shopping. Haha)

Well, it's probably my last opportunity to go shopping before I go back Brunei, coz once again, my flight will be leaving Calgary a few hours after my exam, so no more shopping from now on. *Sad.

Stupid me didnt think about wearing winter boots. It was snowing like crazy, and snow kept getting in between my sneakers and my jeans! It was freaking cold.

So to compensate (another excuse), I bought something I've been wanting to buy ever since the first day I saw it.

I'm a big fan of Swarovski. I loveeee crystals (not plastic, ok. Real crystals!!).
And it's very affordable too. Well, still expensive for a student budget la.

Anyway, I've been wanting to buy their tinkerbell hair clip. Yup, a hair clip that costs more than CAD$100.



*sigh* Isnt that beautiful?
I finally bought it yesterday. I couldnt stop admiring it. Worth every cent (to me la).

I also bought two swarovski crystal necklaces for my sisters. I know they like my purple "starfish" swarovski necklace.

I've been wanting to get a Tiffany bracelet as well. But there's no Tiffany in Calgary. Maybe I'll stop by their shop in Singapore.
I'll be too old if I wait for my prince charming to buy me one. Haha.

note: To the guy who promised to get me one, I'm tired of waiting. I'll BUY one myself.

that elusive concept

Course 6 - ObGyn & Paeds (or, women and children's health).

So much controversies.
Contraception. Pregnancy. Abortion. Ethics.

I.....

It's so hard to put into words. I dont know where to start. Haha.

Let's take a *simple* example.
Pro-life? Or pro-choice?
I recently have a few *stimulating* talk with a very pro-life friend.

Just to keep things simple, I'll state that I'm pro-choice. It does not mean that I'll encourage abortion. No way. It also does not mean that I'll tell people to do abortion.
It simply means that I believe in giving people choices.

I love babies. Everyone knows that. I'm not the type who takes life lightly. Otherwise, I wont be in medicine. But I believe in keeping my mind and my options open.

Life is not always black and white. There's so much grey in between.

Anyway, about my pro-life friend. When I talked to her, I realise that we do have the same opinions on things.

I asked her, "what if it's a rape victim?". She said then that's acceptable to do abortion.
I asked "what if the mum's life is at stake?". She also said abortion is acceptable in such cases.

It was only then that I realise we simply have different definitions of pro-life and pro-choice.

To her, it's still pro-life when you offer abortion to rape victims and to mothers whose life are in danger. But to me, that's pro-choice, coz I'm giving these women choices.

I guess it takes a lot of courage to say "I'm pro-choice". Because people will automatically think you're a bad person. But what is a bad person anyway.

And again, pro-choice is not about abortion. It's about choices. Autonomy.
So you see, pro-choice people are about pro-life first. And when that doesnt work, they offer choices.

I know these are delicate issues. I respect people's beliefs. I accept that people think differently and no one is definitely correct, and no one is absolutely wrong.

I guess this is a part of growing up.

It takes a lot of maturity to try to understand another person's perspective, and to respect that it's ok to have different opinions on things.

And that's one thing I've learned recently - to be open-minded. To put myself in another person's shoes. It's almost always very difficult because no two minds work the same. But one step at a time is a good start.

Ok, I admit I like to challenge other people's beliefs and thoughts. Playing the devils' advocate. I'm not trying to be nasty. Most of the time I'm just trying to make them see that there's ALWAYS another side to the story. Nothing is absolute.
Just keep an open mind. And be willing to listen.

I guess it's not easy. And sometimes not possible. Especially when it comes to religion.
I guess that's why I'm a freethinker. It's hard to keep an open mind when you're compelled to believe, sometimes blindly, (pardon my frankness) in a set of rules.


Recently, I was talking to a friend. About life after death.
I said that I dont really think much about life after death, coz we have no idea what will happen after we're dead. And I basically (80%) think that there's nothing after death. I like to think this way. It makes me feel better to be prepared for worst case scenario.
But my friend said it scares her to think there's nothing after death. It makes her feel better to think there's something after death.

See my point?
We may both have different opinions, but the end result is the same - we both feel better about our own thoughts.

So, nothing is absolute. Be open minded.

Anyway, I'm really excited about going home. I miss my Tristan.

a special morning with a special soul

Today I met a very special person.

He's 89 years old. Listening to his story, I felt like I can listen all day. Such a colourful past.

The years he spent serving the air force during WWII. The years he spent as a doctor. The years he spent with his wife.

His wife just passed away a few months ago. They've been married for 61 years. He got teary-eyed when he talked about his wife. She sounded like a very wonderful person. He really miss her. He said he's depressed, but he's so rational about it that it's not worrying.

He has 6 grandchildren, and 5 great grandchildren. He said he's a favourite among them. I can imagine why. He's such a pleasant, fun, charming person to be with.

He said he felt useless, coz he's no longer contributing to the society. I tried to tell him that he has spent so many many years contributing to the society during the war, during his years as a doctor, and now is the time for him to enjoy himself.
He laughed at me and said, "My family tried to tell me that too, but I'm not buying it". He is such a lovely person. He understood my good intentions, and he understood that his family love him, but he has such a strong mind of his own.

I can just imagine him, 60-70 years ago during WWII, the charming friendly soldier, thinking he's invincible, fighting for his country, full of life, energy, and hope.

Fast forward to this morning, he's just an old man who's tired of living. 89 years of history. 89 years of memories. He's lived life to the fullest, done his part to contribute to the world. He even has great grandchildren. He doesnt wanna fight anymore.

I wanted to cry. I wanted to be one of his great grandchildrens. I wanted to spend a lot of time, listening to his stories, making him happy.
In the end, I just said thank you. And I thank God for letting our paths crossed.

Before he left, he said that he really enjoyed talking to me. I wanted to tell him I really enjoy his time as well.
I wanted to say more, but I dont know what more to say. Because I know that I probably wont ever have the chance to meet him again. He's very frail. His health is not great. He doesnt have a long time left. But he's happy about it. He's looking forward to meeting his wife on the other side.

I'm crying. Not because I'm sad. But because I've accepted.

Ever felt like you know, like you just know that this is a very special moment of your life? I know that there's a reason why God arranged our meeting.
I think he'll always have a special place in my mind, if not my heart.
In closing, I wish him much happiness.

Lizzy's eye candy :D

Jay Chou

(best festure: multi-talented)

Roy Qiu
(best feature: eyes that talk *sigh*)

Wilber Pan
(best feature: slightly accented mandarin)

Raymond Lam
(best feature: eyebrows)

Moses Chan
(best feature: gentleman, charming)

Chris Evans
(best feature: need I say??? look at that abs!!)

noooooooooooooooooooo....

I'm utterly totally absolutely devastated by this news.

Keeping roads safe with de-merit point system????

As a citizen, a medical student, a daughter and a sister, I'm happy that Brunei finally do something about some stupid drivers' dangerous stunt on the road.

But as "supra girl" (a nickname given by some people), that news just broke my heart.
Just for the record, I do not like it when people call me supra girl. Anyone who called me by that nick will be plainly ignored.

sigh.... (a happy dreamy sigh)

The only guy who can make me melt at the mere sight of his name. Lol.

Jay Chou~

I've always had this HUGEEEEE crush on Jay Chou - for more than 8 years now, since his very first album.
He's just so cuteeeee. How can anyone not think so?

Here - just to share my happiness (from looking at his pictures. Haha) :p









I decided to write this post coz I realise that I never really post anything about Jay, although I spend a lot of my time watching his clips, interviews, and any shows with him in.
Oh well. Just a post to say - I adore Jay. Huhu~