:'(

They're selling a silver Lamborghini Gallardo for B$350,000 in a used car shop in Berakas.
Although it's not a black one, it's still sooooooooooo gorgeous.
Sigh. And I can only admire it from afar (very afar). Sad.

Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister

I was SO sad to find out that they've cancelled Carzine carshow :( even if I wont be in Brunei to witness it.

We all know who Cinderella is. We all know the story. We all love the happily ever after.
We all know that Cinderella is beautiful and kind and hardworking.
We all know that the ugly stepsisters are cruel and evil.

Then someone comes along with a different version of the story, and it forever changes your opinion of Cinderella's stepsisters.

Maybe Cinderella is not so perfect after all.
And maybe the prince is not so charming after all.

Gregory Maguire's "Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister".


As much as I love Beauty and the Beast, I've always disliked Cinderella and Snow White. I've always felt that there's something suspicious about poor beautiful girl who met rich handsome prince, then lived happily ever after.
Very very suspicious, especially the happily ever after part.

No one is always beautiful, kind, hardworking, sweet all at once. No one lives happily every after everyday for the rest of their life.
Evevryone has a bad side. And people argue once in a while, if not a lot of the time. That's life. And I love life.
There's something so wrong about typical Disney princess.

And then, Gregory Maguire *told* me - yes, Cinderella is not perfect, and no, her stepsisters are not really evil.

Anyway, just a realistic way of looking at the story of Cinderella. I love it.

彩 虹 魚 的 眼 泪

Just wanna say a few things before I go to sleep.
Can hardly keep my eyes open. Haha.

We (me and some "friends", some *friends*, and some friends) went to MedShow just now. It is an annual Canadian medical schools tradition. Includes some clips, songs, dance, comedy acts, etc.
This is my third year attending the event.

As much as I like Ken's version of David Tao's Sha Tan, I was really disappointed Richard wasn't going to sing tonight. He was one of our seniors. Not exactly good looking, but when he's on stage, singing with his guitar, I'm sure every female audience was in love with him. I especially love his "When you say nothing at all" last year.

And as always, *ahem* (the guy I have a crush on) looks superrrrrrrr adorable tonight. I recorded part of his performance on my cell phone. One word - hot. Haha. Love his guitar.

Then I ended up walking home alone.
I dont mind walking home alone. Even at 11pm. It's only ~10 minutes.

But I just dont understand why my housemates didnt wait for me???

I forgot my jacket so I went back in to get it. When I came back out, I didnt see my housemates, so I waited for about 5-10 minutes, and realised that my housemates have all left without me.

Then I saw a few other *friends* walking pass.
And I was like "Have you seen my housemates?".
They replied "They've already gone home"
So I asked "Without me??"
One guy answered "Who areeeee you? Why should they wait for you?"
I was almost speechless.
Even as a joke, that really really hurts. Ouch. Thank you for being awful to me. Of course I appreciate that. Everyone will appreciate that.

Okkkkk.....
Hmmm. I didnt know whether to be mad or sad. Is that a hint that something is wrong with me?

Anyway, I enjoyed the walk. It's a lovely night. The stars were gorgeous. I wouldnt have noticed it if I'm walking with other people.

new title

A short note on the new title of my blog :D

The first ever title for my blog (back in livejournal) was "dots on my rainbow". Very self-explanatory. I thought life was awesome (like rainbow), but there's always small moments of unhappiness (ie. dots).

Then when I switched to blogspot, I named it "whims of frivolous mistress fate".
In anicent Celtic folktale, there exists a Goddess\fairy named "Fate" because she can change people's fate and luck according to her mood.

My impression of this fairy is a little naughty and a little impulsive. She's also always cheerful, and kind, but she also has a short temper.
Thus she's always kind to people, but she also likes to play tricks on people. And if you make her mad, she'll be really really unkind.

This title is my favourite because it shows my love for European mythology and folktale.
It also shows what I think of life - as if *someone* is having fun with me, throwing things into my path a bit impulsively, sometimes not taking me seriously, but in the end, always fair and kind to me.

Then one day, while blogging in class, I realised that the person sitting behind me can easily look at my screen, then goggled for my blog address!!
So I decided to change it into a chinese title - " 诗 诗 's 小 天 堂 " - which simply means my little heaven. 诗 诗 is my nickname with some family members.

Today, I re-named it " 彩 虹 魚 的 天 空 ", which means "sky of the rainbow fish". I just thought it's cute. の is just a japanese character for 的.

Imagine the rainbow fish who is constantly in the water, what would be her impression of the sky?
The sky is beautiful, but she can only look at it through the blurry surface of water.
A little sad. But she knows that she can never leave the water to watch the sky. To love is not to own. So even if she can only admire it from afar, she's happy.

The bittersweet feeling she has, that only she can understand.

CNY eve, hp straps, necklace

Remember what I did on CNY eve?
I went to Market Mall to do my facial, and guess what I saw in the mall?


They even have a chinese music mini concert set up.
There was also a few tiny stalls, selling chinese calligraphy, chinese paintings, etc.
They also have lion dance, but I was too lazy to fish out my cell phone to take more pictures.


I really like this angel cell phone strap that I *stole* from my second sister. Haha.
I didnt see any cell phone that I like when I was back in Brunei, so I'm still using this *free* motorola I got when I signed a 3-yr contract with one of the providers.
The 3 years are almost over now~
So many many people are using iphone now. Although as med students, we're all provided with a palm, everyone seems to think an iphone is better.




My nokia phone strap - a korean bear that I spent US$8 on.
I love it!


Last but not least, my favourite necklace.
A christmas gift from my youngest sister - an angel necklace from Diamond & Platinum. As tiny as the diamonds are, they are still diamonds :p

Happi V day

I know that everyone has their own struggles and challenges to face, so it's not just me. But one of my favourite way to go through stress/challenges/struggles is to blog/whine/complain.
And it sucks when it comes to things/topics/people I cant blog about.

So, I can only write and then save it as a draft. Sigh~

Anyway, long story short - just a bit sad coz disappointed by some people. No big deal. I'll get over it. Life is not always going to be smoothhhhhh ma.

Anyway, happy valentine's day!!!
I made a cake yesterday for valentine's day. Huhu~

Pecan butter cake with vanilla frosting (with names of my housemates and me :p)

More pictures of Leo

Pictures taken yesterday -
Sunrise outside our kitchen window

月亮代表谁的心

So now I'm very bored. I want/need a car.

Ok, a good news first.
I pass my OSCE/med skill course - 86% (passing mark is 66%) phew~
This course is one of my biggest weaknesses, especially the communication/history-taking section. But I did well. I guess I've to thank my SP (standardised patient/actor) that day. He was really charming and likeable, so it put me at ease and 91% is seriously beyond my imagination.

My favourite section is "procedural skills", which includes, things like suturing, IV line, intubation, lumbar puncture, etc.
Now you know why I wanna be a surgeon.

Happy, happy, happy.

Now, one more exam before I move on to third year. Yes!

I'm always a little afraid of the question "what type of doctor do you wanna be?". Because most people have generally bad impression of surgeons (arrogant, perfectionists with bad tempers), and you can almost see people judging you when you answer "I'm thinking of going into surgery".
But recently, I've been thinking of becoming a GP - shorter residency years, first line doc, more free time, no on-calls, less death. The best part is you dont have to wake up at 5am everyday to do ward rounds, and dont have to do 24-hours on call every 3-4 days. The downside is of course (very very) less money. Huhu~

I just hope our psych exam passing mark is not too high. Please dont let it be 80%.

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And here are two pictures I lub very much :D

the proper version

the improper version

la la la~

It sucks not having a camera. But I'm still undecided between a cute simple thing like Canon powershot E1, or an SLR like a Nikon D40.

We had a CNY dinner at Janet and Vi Ean's place last night -about 32 people were there (We had a bet about that). A few very religious female friends didnt come. They had decided not to go to any sort of gathering where guys were invited. Oh well.

Anyway, it was fun!
Most people have left by around 11pm. Me, and a few friends, stayed till around 130am. I was washing dishes with Ken. So that makes me less guilty about not helping with the preparation.
Coz I spent half an hour putting on my eye make-up -.-" Sigh

I finally feel more like *myself* last night. Like the *me* before I came to Calgary. Confident, friendly, mischievous. Med school really kills my self confidence.

And I finally get to see that kns kid, Hamza. We used to hang out every weekend, but we stopped after I went back to Brunei last summer and him in the states. Well, it was my fault as well. I didnt call him when he didnt call. But I'm so used to him taking the initiative. Well, I've been busy anyway. Med school just absorbssss time like a dry sponge absorbs water.

Auntie Elizabeth and Auntie Rosalind were there as well. So it was good to catch up with them.

The fun part of our gathering is always the guitar and singing part.
We have quite a few really good guitarists. I should buy a guitar and start practising!

I knew I was really bad at singing, coz I never bother to maintain my key. Well, I usually sing only to entertain myself, not as if I perform a lot. Last night, I was more concerned with being on the same page with the guitarist, so half of my focus is on remembering lyrics and the other half keeping eye contact with the guitarist to ensure I'm singing the right thing at the right time.

And yes, I've given up piano. Expensive and non-portable. Not a good choice of musical instrument to learn while here. As we never know where we'll be next year (after graduation). Guitar is more sensible. Since I'll HAVE to keep my nails short when I enter clerkship.

Speaking of performing, medshow will be here soon. Woohoo. Hopefully they'll be better this year. A friend is performing David Tao's Sha Tan, so as good friends, we'll all be there to boo him :D

A few friends are engaged. Woo hoo~~

I finally completed my med440 - sort of like shadowing a doctor for 10 sessions of 4 hours. It was fun, but I really dislike finding time to schedule it in. Lectures always seem to clash with my preceptor's clinics time -.-
But anyway, it's over. It was a great experience though. I feel more prepared for clerkship.

And we had a moustache competition on thursday. One of my friends dressed up as the KFC colonel. Complete with his white hair and white suit. It was so cute. And we have a few weird and funky moustache +- beard. Too bad I didnt have a camera. One guy designed his beard like a pair of wings, dyed them pink, because his gf's name is wing -.-
One had a heart shape beard that you'll only notice if he lifted his chin. It was very adorable. LoL. I was speechless when a guy told the crowd that he shaved the shape of two testicles onto his chin.

And here is a picture my dad took around the time of His Majesty's birthday.
It was right after I went hiking with him (That's why I look awful), and he wanted a picture of his sponsorship of the event. I thought it was cute.
Now I know where I inherit my eccentricity.

daddy & I

10 ways to de-stress

1- jogging!! or hiking. Snowboarding. Any sports that I can do alone.

2- shopping!!! (NOT window shopping. When I'm stressed, I need to spend money)

3- spa, massage, jacuzzi, or just a long hot bath.

4- driving. I'm talking about 240kph.

5- chocolate. Doesnt work 90% of the time.

6- talking to a non-judgemental person (which is ridiculously hard to find sometimes).

7- a good book!

8- movie marathon - hk tvb drama or cinema

9- playing with my dogs, or going to the zoo

10- cleaning - tidy up my room, washing dishes, doing laundry


Tell me what is your best/favourite coping mechanism to stress!